Among the past and now

Lost in my Thoughts

No far away I had a long hair.
I had a guitar to play too,
But, I didn’t have patience to learn playing it.
I had a dog.
However, I couldn’t go out for a walk with my pet.
My father gave me a little sister to protect.
Like almost all young boys in 1990.
But I couldn’t offer love and affection to her,
Because I was hidden behind my utopia.
I wrote some bad poetry,
Like this you are reading now.
But, it spoke about a better land.
In fact I planned to change the world
I and any friends which I belived I had, together.
I failed, we failed with our friendship.
I had a drive license before the right time,
When I was only fourteen years old.
However, I didn’t have earlier my own freedom.

So, the time run away from our hands.
And today, I have got a no very fast car.
I have got a basic black mobile phone and a power computer.
I have got somebody to know and love.
To try one more time.
But, there is no friendship here.
There are no dreams in this new century,
I have just discovered five seconds ago.
Working hard,
I only can maybe to change my mind, my actions.
So, today I have got a hard stone instead my flesh heart.
I'm worried! I'm afraid! It's so cold here.
I want strongly to turn into another person.
So I have got a remembrance too.
When I was sixteen and had a long hair…
I had a magic experience,
when He touched my face.
He smiled, show me your love and told any secrets…